When it’s good not to be good

People tell you that to succeed in life you need to work hard. People tell you that to succeed in life you need to strive for improvement, to develop skills. Work hard. Do your best. There is some truth in that. But you know me, I don’t always believe what people tell me. And honestly, sometimes it’s good not to …

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Conversations With My Father

Recently I wrote about a birth that came too early, that shook me up, left me scattered – and that somehow brought me understanding of things I’d never grasped before. This post is about a death that did the same. It’s a year today since my father died. He’d been in hospital just over two weeks and that day he …

Thankful for machines and love

I am thankful for: Ventilators C-pap machines Oxygen prongs Oxygen masks Oxygen monitors Doctors and nurses who specialise in neo-natal care TPN (total parenteral nutrition) Breast pumps Freezers that stored the milk till she could tolerate it Blood transfusions (7 in total) Doctors Edgar Rey and Hector Martinez of Bogata, Columbia. I have never been to Columbia, and never met …

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Thankful for Connections

Gratitude comes in layers. I’ve written about that before, about how there’s the thankfulness for things, and then the deep thankfulness that is (in my opinion) actually our natural state. For me, the form of gratitude that feels most glorious is the kind that comes from opening to life just as it is, that comes from letting go of old …

A mixed bag of thankfulness

There’s only one week of school left so we’re getting in the holiday mood here. Not that we are going on a grand adventure – we’re just visiting my family up north and later on we’ll take a short trip south. (My husband and I come from opposite ends of the UK.) Still, his leave began today, and suitcases are …

Thankfulness – the Anniversary Edition

The Ten Things of Thankful blog hop is a year old. Happy birthday thankfulness. Of course, a birthday is an anniversary and guess what – it’s my wedding anniversary tomorrow. Nineteen years. It’s compulsory at any celebration to have cake, so here are a few I made earlier: I can even supply the recipe for one of them, the hedgehog …

My Glamorous, Glitzy Life

Hands up if you think being married to a pilot is glamorous. Did you raise yours? In that case I know you aren’t married to one. Most people think this is what we do all the time: Yip, that’s me, in the Maldives. Over twenty years ago, and before kids, but it’s me. We went. It rained nearly all the time, but it …

Gratitude Spreads Gratitude

I have a feeling that gratitude breeds gratitude. The more you feel it, the more it grows. I’m struggling to find the words for this post, because this week has been extraordinary. So I’ll just start at the beginning. Last weekend, to mark what would have been my father’s birthday, both my books were free to download on Kindle, and …

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Thankfulness is a breeze, and sometimes a hurricane

Sometimes thankfulness is barely noticeable, like the lightest of breezes on a hot summer’s day. It’s there, still making my heart beat, still flowing through the me-ness of me. But I don’t notice. I go about my day, taking life and gratitude for granted: picking up a small child, talking with that child – now grown – kissing my husband …

Thankful For A Loss

In sharing this story, I do not wish in any way to negate or belittle the experience of anyone who has gone through miscarriage and is still grieving. My hope is that by sharing my story I can perhaps offer others hope or resolution. Motherhood came later in life for me than it does for many women. In my twenties, I had no …